the phone call

Getting a phone call from Robert (my son's dad) make me flare up with all kinds of mixed feelings. 1. i haven't talked to him since .......
2. he asks about Javan. Apparently the UFC fight yesterday was held in L A and they dedicated it to the marines and Robert thought Javan went to it. (they use to watch UFC all the time together when Javan was here) but i told him That Javan is in 29 palms which is a training place and that is where Javan is. he will be there til the 29th. than he will come home in Dec. See, Robert doesn't know any of this, he last spoke to Javan about a month ago.
My communication with Robert is very hard. There is so much that can be conversed about but he shuts me out completely. this is why when he call, it trips me out. I HAVE NO CONTACT NUMBER FOR HIM. IF I HAD TO ABSOLUTELY GO TO WHERE HE LIVES, I WOULD BE YELLED AT BY HIS OTHER HOUSEHOLD MEMBERS. but Robert would talk to me at another location. Robert will steer away from anything i would ask about how he is or what he is doing. last i know, he got laid off from wal mart this year.
I guess for me it is a lot to intake when i communicate with Robert. I have for given . and yes i am a person of compassion, but there was a time when i lived for was Robert, Javan, and me,
Now well as we are all adults, I do encourage Javan to keep communication with his dad. I cannot force it. and Javan can make up his own decisions about his own way of accepting his dad.
Robert is a compassionate person and for him to call me It must have been weird but it is always weird for me too.
Our son is what we have in common. And i never took Javan or made Javan or bad mouth to Javan about his dad. Javan is lucky he has two people that care for him that we will keep amicable for him. I believe that Robert will know me best til the day i die! even if i change or be with another , he will know me.
I also know that my son Javan knows me best! he knows all i do is for him. even as the new stage of him being a young adult, okay MAN, we are learning about each other. Deep down tho i am always the mom, which i have to still be, in a whole new way!
I LOVE YOU JAMIE
I LOVE YOU JAVAN

Beach Maui Tweetup Picture

Aloha,here we are the the mauit tweetup last week.
@raatz @craigonmaui @grevels Lopaka, @mauihunter (kona) @jalove
we got to catch up with each other.
it was a nice time at the park.
i enjoyed eating the food.
This is about the normal size of a maui tweetup.
Hope the next one has a bigger turnout. Ideas:Moana Cafe, Paia
Joy's Cafe in Kihei Island surf building, pali Lookout for sunset
I have been enjoying seeing people IRL that i interact with online.
Mahalo

tweet up on maui this weekend

I am coordinating this event this weekend. come and enjoy!
Tweetup: Pot Luck at the Park on Oct 11, 2009 RSVP here: http://twtvite.com/h6vry8 #beachmauitweetup #twtvite FOR EVERYONE R.S.V.P. to this fun day at the beach with others who are online.Maui residents,visitors. Have you decided on a dish to bring? Are you using an original family recipe ,using one you find online like me. or just to busy to cook...

Potluck At The Park

WOW

sunset people

I can't believe I have all these sunset pictures. Also some of other scenery.

THIS ( AND THAT )

Aloha,
again on unemployment(at this rate i tease myself that i work for the state cause of all the things you have to do to maintain the UI requirements and still hard to find job,)
my son is still training( he went to this place called Bridgepor,CA. i hope to hear from him in the next week. we last spoke the first week of July. )
My son is 20!( I am in awe myself. it has been the 2nd birthday that i didn't celebrate with him. i have to let go as a mom to realize i have a young man now, he's 20, don't lay on the doting to hard anymore. i just want to give him a hug and say i love you to him in person. he is a very good kid from the start. i always get that told to me about him. i am a very proud mom. but 20!!! wow!!!!)
music is my sanity.(okay i went to the maui massive concert,KATCHAFIRE,OOKALH,ANUHEA, NATURAL VIBES,MAOLII, i had such a blast!many mahalos to Shaggy of Q103. man the guy hooked us up big time!! Although my GF Cindy got sick and didn't go, i was able to use the tickets for other friends. aND i meet some of my twitter friends IRL at the concert. Kamanu from Oahu, Fasha from kihei, But i had meet BK,bkgirlfriday, from oahu last year and she was there too! I gave here and Shaggy these little goodluck kittys. you know the japanese ones with the paw. i just was showing them my appreciation cause i do go to Shaggy's on line show and BK does do things to promote him. anyway, it was a wonderful time. OHHH at the end, there was Shaggy, hugging everyone!!! He gave me a kiss and hugg and i am in love with the dude!very respectable person! so i continue to listen to shaggylive and try to keep up with the guy , but hes a busy dude,,,all for the good reason,,too! Oh and at the concert, i meet Anuhea jenkins, anuheajams, she is a powerful women in her stage presence. shes awesome. and my friend lopaka bought me beer the whole night,. it was only coors light but it was fun do just be out having fun. i snuck in my shots of maui rum. so u see i love concerts.if you look back at my old posts, i have other concert memories.)
doing it cause i just felt like i had too(yes i did my standing on the highway with my donation sign again. many maui angels watch over me. at the end the 200.00 was put toward re registering my vehicle. boy was that a great help.)
IRL !(i have really going to these tweet ups!the people are very cordial! and just as excited to meet and know me. i am glad for my new friends that i meet on line at twitter and the andy bumatai show. Peter,his wife kathy, Craig, his wife Kim, Liza,cindy,. Cindy organized a tweet up and it was fun.pot luck style. so after that she said to me ,just try it, so now i did an online invite for a tweet up LOL< it is coming up. i hope the group expands.)
Today july 31 ( i have a friend birthday is today. i never knew anyone with that birthdate before. Happy Birthday Radical Randy! he has helped me in my trials and tribulation a few years back, he is a long time friend.He was in a n incident where he got shot in the elbow,and grazed at the inner thigh. man i was suppose to got to that BBQ that night it all happened a couple years ago. Randy has moved off of maui to texas since this happen and i haven't seen him. WOW ! he is in my thoughts today!)
yesterday( i went to flat rocks. it has been some time since i went there cause i thought the road was to rocky for my car. and it made it just fine. hiking down the 5 minute trail brought back MANY memories. lots of yellow ginger!!! the pond was fine and laying out in the sun was fine.i seen 6 people today. i was there for about 3 hrs.it was a very healing kind of feeling. i did bring home some ginger and ti leaves with me .
goodbye July!
ENJOY THE PHOTOS!